Friday, January 30, 2004

Today in lit there was such a depressing poem that Miss Huang gave us. *sobs*

Feel really bad yknow. Told Charissa that i was going to join gb.. But then now i got into squash, so i'm not joining gb*saddens* xD How how? Feel so bad leh. I SO wanna join gb but then i'm not super woman. So Charissa, if you read this(which you will) don't blame me! xD Haha. I will go on replying to your long letter after this. Probably will be in your class tray soon. HEh.

Oh and philo and science is all about the same. Mrs Tay is trying to tell us that science cannot explain everything, so don't blame her if she can't. [Why do i sound so juvenile?] Anyway for phlio, we were discussing the difference between invention and discovery. Hmm. Lets think. =:)(that's blushing). Gosh. I sound exceedingly childish. What is wrong?!

We have French homework!!!! Haha. And we do have other homework too. EEps. Yeah. Yuan is siccccccck(in the mind.) Oh yeesh. The journals. the journals. For CLE and philo. Its so dumb. If they want us to do a feedback on the lesson just say so larh. Pointless making us write journals, which won't reflect our true feelings, just to make the teacher feel good. Like trying to pull strings to become student leader etc. Which i want to become but probably won't, since I've been branded the 'pai' vice-chair. I'm such a slacker. Mostly because Huihui never lets me do anything and wants to be invovled in everything. She IS the class chair, but when she has too tight a grip on everything, it tends to crumble and fall.. Maybe she sould learn how to let go.. and let GOd. = D

Andrea and me are thinking of having some cell group thing in the class altho its yet to take flight. Meetings most probably mondays after psl session, every forthnightly. Which reminds me: Naughty naughty Charissa. Forgot about Yi Hui. You naughty giRL!! Man, i am hYpEr. *boing boing boing.~ This is where reality sets in: I'm not used to being hyper. Oh wells. [the cleverness of me!] =D

Yay. I got back into the mood of writing poems. Natasha writes poems? Don't know for sure, but she sure draws well. HEh. I'm so gonna decorate my locker. Put up lots of LOTR, Christian, Manchester United etc etc stuff. I bought seventeen to snip out faces. Most probably find a Clay picture and draw a great big X on it and stick it on my locker. I'm so sure that Kuo Ying and Si Pei will chop off my head follwed by the rest of the ardrent Clay fans who will proceed to tear me to pieces. *horror!!!*

Today played truth or dare while waiting for our health check-up. Learnt so much more about Yuan. Haha. [i know something about you. rAhahahaHA] Anyway was forced to reveal many things about myself too. Truth or dare is such a REVEALING game. HEh. Everyone in the house needs the comp. I shall be considerate and not hog it for longer. = ) Later then friends. = D

prayer;praise;promises`_____ 9:33 pm

Wednesday, January 28, 2004

In the busyness of everyday school life, I can hard find time to reflect upon to my misdeeds... To say that Jesus is my Lord. No time to show express my love for Him. No time to see my sin upon That Cross. Always forgetting to bow down and be humble.. I just have time to give excuses. Excuses that don't forgive the wrong.. Better things to do than read the Word. Always leaving it to the last. Letting the flame burn by its own.. It needs oxygen.. It needs to read the word.. But I'm not giving it the space for it to grow. Leaving qt to the end of my day. But the Lord always prayed the first thing in the day. He always gave the day to the Lord. I don't know. But i just feel like giving up sometimes..

Today when i was waiting for french class to start, inspiration found my there.. So i typed a short verse on my poem. Packs my emotions about rgs life. I don't want to just become another clone of the school.. I don't want to be caught up in worldly events. I just want to give everything to God.. To rest on Him.. -How i long to be deeper in love..-

I'm bored.
To bits.
I feel the need
To bleed. I want to praise.
Up till my days.
But i just dream.
My realm. I cannot
Love. Or love to hate.
I have no feeling.
No mistake. I want to
Laugh. But I am stone.
I am ignored. They
Hear no groan. I
Find fault in all
My path. I sing.
But only hear the dust.

I need to feel real happiness and not human disillusions anymore. My smile's breaking. I yearn to lean on Him. Confess and you'll be saved. I want to just go to heaven. I don't want to live in this world of illusions. i want to go deeper in love..

no more doubts.

prayer;praise;promises`_____ 8:24 pm

I'm blogging from school = ). Hahaha.

Blogger , blooooooooooger I'm addicted youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu! haha*boing~
nth to say. more later.

prayer;praise;promises`_____ 9:32 am

Sunday, January 25, 2004

Heyy. Just finished my commonwealth. I feel accomplished. Congratulate me on my hardwork! = ) Haha.

Cliques. Just occured to me why its not really good to have them. My class is becoming cliqu-ish. Bad bad thing. Adrian said that cliques are okay if we remember to include others in them. But, if we meant to do so, no point having a clique. Maybe what he said makes sense, even though its not unusual for people not to welcome other. Oh well.

It rained the whole day yesterday. First time Yf was so barren at 6 o'clock. Most of the sisters went home. And the brothers were playing carem(pardon spelling). I was bored so i went to talk to Lincoln. He isn't much part of any clique in the Yf. He didnt get invited to anything.. So depressing to talk abt it actually. Cliques. mmhmm. Not exactly a very nice word. I was feeling sorry for him when he said it was okay. Makes it easier for him to love more people. Its logical alright, but still. Sweats. Does anyone understand?

Today i talked to Desmond. He's the other best brother besides Lincoln. Haha. He told me to trust him. He gives all this useful insights. haha. maybe. = )

My brothers love me. I love them too.

prayer;praise;promises`_____ 7:24 pm

Friday, January 23, 2004

To mantian a healthy body during chinese new year, do not take more than one sweet per hour.

Sweets non-withstanding, I miss all the hype and fun we used to have during the festive period. When you're a child, you're less aware of the bigger picture. Even if the world is painted as a big mural right in front of you, a child will only run close up to the painting and see what's in front of him only. It may be just a small part depicting some warmth and joy, but that's all it matters to a child. There's only so much, so far a child may be able to see. As you grow up, you learn to step back, and see the bigger picture. That's when your eyes are opened and you start shifting your focus to other parts of this art, and realize that there are so many different feelings depicted in a single mural. Much more things have happened every year since the turn of the century, and that forms the sorrow, burden and pains of the picture. Sometimes i wish i never grow up; but i know that i get more strength from God each day as i step a step further back to view this mural of life.

Did the normal visiting yesterday. Collected money. I'm so materialistic. After all, money was the only thing i actually looked forward to. Well, money aside, there's this kin-ship thingy where we actually get to interact with my paternal side of relatives. That's smth to treasure i guess. = )

Went blog-surfing. Realized many people face the same things that i do in this Christian walk. Found the blogs of people in RG too. Haha. Its such a small world sometimes.

prayer;praise;promises`_____ 10:23 am

Wednesday, January 21, 2004

lost

when everything comes to a head.
progress becomes an apparent illusion.
when you strip the veneer
and expose the raw truth.
and then u realise that genuine progress
was never made.

i wish i never was made like that.
i wish i had a better nurturing environment.
coz dealing with this imperfect situation
drains the life out of me.

i am tired.
displaced.
in the diaspora of things
that pervade my sense of being.

i hate being reminded of all i am.
why i am the way i am.
the way i behave. the things i do.
good or bad. all for a reason.
a reason that i abhore.

where superficiality reigns the day.
and all that i desire exists
on the opposite side.
i suppose the other side of the fence
is always greener.
but mine's a parched desert.
with nary a shade of greenish candour.

from dust i come. to dust i go.
i can hardly wait.
wait for that day of beckoning to come.
to take me home.
to the home where all's perfect.
perfect in His love.
-adapted from kLeM's blog.

Lunar New Year eve. Just another festive day. Its festivals all the time, what's so celebrating abt it anway? Oh well. In the background i here the tv. lots and LOTS of laughing. HEh. You know what they actually have laughing as the background? In case the viewers don't laugh. Ooh. I just have to be the lamest person on earth.

Commonwealth Essay. What local custom(s) or tradition(s) of your people/community would you be sorry to lose in modern life? Why do you value it?

help me. i shall go suffer it in peace now.

prayer;praise;promises`_____ 10:38 pm

Monday, January 19, 2004

As promised, I'm back on. With smth for you to ponder.

Sacrifice

"Where are the young men and women of this generation who will hold their lives cheap, and be faithful even unto death? Where are those who will lose their lives for Christ's sake- flinging them away for the love of Him? Where are those who will live dangerously and be reckless in His service? Where are His lovers- those who love Him and the souls on men more than their own reputations or comfort, or very life?

Where are the man who say 'No' to self; who take up Christ's cross to bear it after Him; who are willing to be nailed to it in college or office, home, or mission field; who are willing, if need be to bleed, to suffer and to die on it?

Where are the men of vision? Where are the men of enduring vision? Where are the ,en who have seen the King in His beauty, by whom from hence-forth all else is counted but refuse that they may win Christ? Where are the adventurers, the explorers, the pioneers for God who count one human soul of far greater value than the rise or fall of an empire? Where are the men of glory an God-send lowliness, difficulties, persercutions, misunderstanding, discipline, sacrifice, death?

Where are the men who are willing to pay the price of vision?

Where are the men of prayer? Where are the men who, like the psalmist of old, count God's Word of more importance to them than their daily food? Where are the men who, like Moses, commune with God face to face as a man speaks with his friend, and unmistakably bear with them the fragrance of the meeting through the day?

Where are God's men in this day of God's power?"

I just typed everyth in the handout they gave. But its really meaningful. I needed it.

Thanks.

prayer;praise;promises`_____ 10:12 pm

Am i an analyzer? Or controller or promoter? I'm about all of those. Haha.. Confusing. This personality thing is seriously stupid. I mean.. Think about it larh, you'll get what i mean soon. Well, soon enough. rAhahahaha.

Went for Dedication service today. = ) Not bad. Haha. I'm so planning to go for all the rest every term. AND i'm dragging Natasha and Andrea along with me! Haha. *evil* So they asked us: "Why do you read the bible?" Haha.. Miss Wong was all," So you will know the truth and the truth wll set you free." I'm so lucky to have her as my geog teacher. Haha. And i thought it through already. If I can't get into squash, I'll definitely join gb.

updated entry soon.

prayer;praise;promises`_____ 8:34 pm

You are Form 4, Gargoyle: The Fallen.

"And The Gargoyle mended his wings from the
blood of the fallen so he could rise up from
imprisonment. With great speed and
resourcefulness, Gargoyle made the world his
for the taking."

Some examples of the Gargoyle Form are Daedalus
(Greek) and Mary Magdalene (Christian).
The Gargoyle is associated with the concept of
success, the number 4, and the element of wood.
His sign is the new moon.

As a member of Form 4, you are a creative and
resourceful individual. You are always
thinking of possible solutions to problems you
face and you generally choose one that is
right. Much of your success comes from your
ability to look at things a little differently
than everyone else. Gargoyles are the best
friends to have because they don't always take
things for face value.


Which Mythological Form Are You?
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Interesting. Oh well, so much for that.

prayer;praise;promises`_____ 8:26 pm

Sunday, January 18, 2004

Hilarious is the word I'd use to describe it yes Charissa? haha.

Yaye! My planning is going good. Probably cuz this time i learnt how to work together! = ).

Yesterday was hectic. House practice in the morning. There was cheerleading and sprint tryouts. Hmm, my CCA life is not a happy one. Eeps. Hate it. I don't even have a CCA yet. AND, if i don't get into squash, i might as well kill myself(for those of you who don't understand me enough, this is a big joke because i'm not usually so attached to stuff). There's still dance tryouts, thankfully. But practically everything else is over.. HEh. And then i'll just be left with Ncc. You'll never see me in it. Well, i hope...

Sprinting was okay by far. Haha, managed to do a little bit of it. Don't laugh larh.. I don't think i can say anyth of what i really feel without having people muse in my face. I don't like it when that happens. I'm sensitive. Just that most of you don't understand.. I think about it a lot when i hurt a person.. Its not just a passing.. Its all abt reflection.. ouch.

Went for YF after that. Lincoln's talk was everything on Case for Christ. Cept for all the verses. Interesting by far. = ) Haha.. Then we had Dg dicussion. Some of them went off.. Cuz they were tired/hungry etc. haha.. So it was just me and Germaine and Ava. Just chatted for a little bit.. Then went on to the topic of fate vs. God's will. I didn't understand.. But it was a topic i had been toying with for many months/yrs now.. And i still haven't grasped the idea of it yet.. So i was more than a little shocked when Ava came up to me today and told me about Romans 19. I must go and read up on it. I can't actually believe Ava spent so much time on it(i dunnoe, did she? it seems so..). And today, Desmond as her to go buy smth for him, when he was only joking.. But Ava did really buy it! [insert suitable exclamation here] Ava such a nice person. Thank God i have her for my DGL. Its so encouraging.

Then, after YF, went to Chinatown to soak in the festive spirit. Haha.. It was so crammed! Shoulder to shoulder kind of thing. Very sweaty! Haha.. But then, even in all this festive spirit.. There was still the ugliness of Singaporeans.. There was an old lady in wheelchairs.. And there was hardly any space to move.. Where is consideration!? Like, people you could have at least moved away!! She's not as fortunate as you all to have legs to jostle through the crowd. Furthermore, she's being pushed by her son, whom i guess is no more than one year older than me. Why don't you just, for the sake of yourselves, grant her some space. Even worse, they just stood right in front of her.. Pretending to be oblivious. So, call me mean if you will, i went there and *diaoed~ them. -Hemed- in their ears until they sheeplishly moved away.

Today i didn't go for morning worship. Spent time at home reading Artermis Fowl. Then during worship session later than morning, i realized how easy it was to open a storybook and get hooked onto it, but so difficult to just read the Bible. For most of us(those my age), i think reading the Bible's just a chore.. Something you just want to get over and done with.. Yeah.. Its so painful? The knowladge of your actions. And then yet i.. sighs.. yet i still am not repentant... Sighs. the truth hurts.

Only one life it soon will pass,
Only what's done for Christ will last...

-adapted of eric's blog-

prayer;praise;promises`_____ 10:47 am

Friday, January 16, 2004

As much as i promised myself i wasn't addicted to this box.. i know..

commitment.

Oh man. Why was that word ever even formed?! Get it outta here man. Chatted with Charissa, Darylin, Stephanie... Caught up a lot with them.. Feeling up today. Finally something i've planned is working. = ). 3 cheers or me yes? *ego!* OH NO! haha.. That's what my angel likes to do. I wonder who that lucky angel is.. I mean, to have such a wonderful mortal like me!*grins~

I'm kind of a in dilemma now. dunnoe what to do.. and yes, its because of you. I don't wish to hurt your feelings, because I do believe that somewhere hidden behind that mask, you, the true you exist. The sensitive someone.. Who down there hurts when i speak. But it's inevitable that i have to agree to disagree.. And, sigh, hurt you again.

Oh well, so much for that. Haha, its Germaine's birthday today! Happy Birthday girl. You rock my socks as a DGL. Haha. = )

Talking to Yun Yi and Yi yun. The world is too much of a conicidence now. Small small world? I think i finally understand the meaning of that song.. Although i dunnoe what lesson to derive from this.. Teach me?

Damn. I'm stalling on the walk with God.. My destination is blurred.. I need chien-chong to come and show me the way again. Man, i was just riding on a high.. Sigh, now the waves crashed against the shore.. And i'm needing my time badly.. I'm... guilty..

guilty..

Sigh.

When its life, love.

Rubbish sentance, but sounds nice. haha.

prayer;praise;promises`_____ 7:09 pm

Wednesday, January 14, 2004

I'm searching for geog articles and yong han's helping me. Thanks arh, couldn't have done it without you.

Andrea, why so scared? You sure you want to be sect or not? Because i dont mind being it in honest truth.

Oh, and philosphy rocks. I'm looking forward to lessons with miss(erh) wang(i think). = ) All the debates. Just awesome. And congrats nat, you got into elds! I'm still -hoping- to get into squash. = |

Oh yeah, entries are quite bland now cuz i'm too busy to actually blog. So might not be blogging for a while so dont chase me. I'll blog when i have stuff to talk abt.

Bath time is when i think. Weird time, but yeah. Thats me.

prayer;praise;promises`_____ 6:19 pm

Tuesday, January 13, 2004

Yos.

Lessons start already. Rg is cool.. But lessons are a different story.. The teachers are okay i guess, cept for one whom i think is biased against me. = (. *saddens* Haha.
Hope its only for one year, but i'm really afraid of him.. and, everything seems so hard to understand. I'd much prefer to do the normal curriculums.. It's so much more simpler. We got to do all the sec 2 /3 stuff.. It just gets harder. There's even uni stuff like thesises and all that. I'm SO going to crash under this weight. Expectations, spontaneous reactions.. You lose out if you dont volunteer kind of stuff.. I forsee myself losing out to all those china girls. They are just too fast for me, and they aren't afraid of speaking up. Not that i am though, just you know, the typical singaporean.

Anyway, finally getting back to my anti-establiahment mode. Liking the effect it gets on ppl. Yeah yeah, i'm a sadist and so? Manz. juat gimmie a break larh. Seems like everyone thinks i dont like the, cuz when i talk to them it seems to be reluctant. But no larh.. thats me lorh.. get used to it.. I'm fun yes? haha. Yarh yarh Yi yun. I AM think skin. and so are you larh. dun deny lorh! = )

manz, type for so long liao. REALLY must go for dinner. I still got homeworks and what not. Sweats. tired. Feel like slping. And andrea, relax will ya? no one's gonna hate you!

unwell. my life story.

prayer;praise;promises`_____ 7:24 pm

Sunday, January 11, 2004

Back again.

Oh, and abt the thinking part, I really did think. Deliberated abt the orientation on the whole, the laughter and the fights, the smiles and the tears, the whole big melting pot of emotions. I found out how much i wanted to become a psl or prefect.. Solely for the orientation and the fun of it. I wouldn't be able to take on the responsiblities of a prefect and to say the least, I don't even want to. But i'm a fun-lover, and that's what pulls me towards it. Manz. You got to be loved by the class, loved by the teacher, loved by the school.. You gotta be enthusiastic, help out with everything, volunteer for everything.. So not me. I fear me. Where's the anti-establishment side of me? Vanished in a speck of dust? Manz. Oh, Lord, tell me what to do. I need your helping hand Lord, speak to me thru qt.

Oh, yes! And please pray for me too, that I may persist in doing my qt, make time for it.. And always always put God first in my life.

Ah, I'm missing my primary school life now. The same way I'm missing orientation. I miss my old class, my friends.. And the place I feel so confortable in. Now in Rg, everything and everyone is so alien. = ( I made a promise to them that I'll always be with them in Spirit and I'm keeping it. May the Lord bless you and keep you always.

prayer;praise;promises`_____ 9:17 am

Saturday, January 10, 2004

Reflected that i don't seem very Godly like. I want to see Christ in me as i see Him in others. And, if you all didn't already know, i went for orientation camp. Made me miss Yf. Haha, but it was fun and worth the going.

Yay. Full-fledged Rafflesian now. They had the School badge intiation ceremony. It was so cool. Its an experience you'll never forget. We lit candles and held them in our hands while we sang the school song and all the other meaningful song. Dedication is the beautifulest song ever(apart frm the other Christian's songs) and Just friends is really meaningful. = ).

The camp was loads of enjoyment. We won first for the station games, although we were really late for most of the stations and didn't play the last game. BUT, we cheered to our lungs content and we won first prize. = ). Weet~. 104 rocks baby. Haha. Class spirit yes?

We watched finding nemo(our theme MOVIE) halfway, cuz suddenly Miss Ong appeared and said we -must- go to slp, so Yi yun and i had no choice but too. Haha. Slpt all over.. but Yi Yun still the best, one position the rule the night. rAhahhaahah. = ). Honestly.

Did quite a lot of pondering today, esp during the house pract time, while we were mass-dancing. I was wondering why i was so enthu, cuz i've always been anti-establishment all the time. So i just did the mass dance rubbishly, while Huihui was jumping around like some kind of adverstiment bimbo. That was when i thot, to conform or not to? Truth is, the only time i ever jumped arnd like a mad person was when i was p2, so gimme a break.

Anyway, our act was a sucess and we got most Vibrant award! = ). *chesses* Father's nagging like a old granny so i'll update some other time. In the meantime, persist in ur odesySEA!

prayer;praise;promises`_____ 8:58 pm

Thursday, January 08, 2004

Still orientation.
I like Junli. She's so cute. = ). Haha. = ). She's a bucklian. rAhahaha. AND she's the vice-head. rAhahahahaha. = ).
anyway, we had concert prep today. The class is rowdy. Selected the characters.. I've no problem with the cast. They all all very action.. And TONS of gd advice. The class is finally working like a class.

Psls are stressed. They want us to perfom really well. Heavy burdern on my shoulders. Haha. = ). We do have to co-operate. And adurey, you can act. PLEASE DO. Dont let all of us dont k? Haha. We are a class. We are spirited.

I just realized I fear lots of things, fear death, fear loss, fear rejection.. AND, as i have just found out today.. Commitment. All my fears just somehow contridict each other. Sigh. Sigh. Sigh. Sigh. Sigh. Sometimes, i fear myself. Fear what i'm doing. Fear the past. Fear the present. Anticipating the future. Fear...


God.

prayer;praise;promises`_____ 6:31 pm

Tuesday, January 06, 2004

Another day of orientation. Learnt more cheers. I like the orientation theme song. So melodious.. I was so rocking to the beautiful tune. But ying jie and vivian nva follow me.. And Jing Han and Olivia kept tickling me and poking me. Haha. Was still able to enjoy the music to a certian extend though.

PSL session was fun in a lame way. Haha. I love our PSLs. Haha. And truth is, our SPSL, Melissa, is really nice, how much i insult her. rAhahahaha = ).

I got to know many MANY more ppl today! = ) but still keep on forgetting their names. Haha.. I must talk to them more.

Eeps. Voice getting lower. Haha. Be in tune with the cheers marh. = )

We had concert prep today. Haha, was made director of my class together with Hui Hui. Seriously looking forward to working with my mates. = ) They are so on. Haha. Hoping we'll have a wonderful time = ). I mean, with Hui Hui and me as the directors and such a great class, and the totally wonderful script writers.. I'm sure it'll be a rocking sucess! Yes 104? Haha.

104 is the CHAMPION class. And Hadley RULES.

*boing*boing*boing*

prayer;praise;promises`_____ 4:39 pm

Monday, January 05, 2004

Which flock do you follow?

this quiz was made by alanna

3rd day of orientation.

Endless flow of talks. Humantites one was a disaster. Practically everyone was drooling in their sleep. No patience to listen to her ramblings. Even the teachers were restless, what more could u expect of us? Raffles Initiation rocked. Haha. Serious. The voices of the seniors are all so low. But the spirit is in the air. -Have you got the spirit?- yeah yeah! = )

Form teacher session was held in homerooms. Got to know more ppl. There was this person who was so into anime. Spent a whole lotta time talking to her.. = )* Well, I'm the last girl again(how many of you are surprised?).. Haha.. I got to know a real lot of people today! just went around talking to everyone. Haha.. After all.. rAhahahaha.

Played games for the Initiation too. = ). Basically, very amusing. But got saboed by all of them to do the forfiet when i cld't find a 'coral'.. Had to do the funky chicken. Embarassing!!!!! Of course i didnt do. I just stood there and LOOKED like i did.. =P Smart hor?

Didn't manage to do Qt today, cuz woke up too late and had to rush of th school. Wanted to do in on the bus on the way back(inspired by uncle Christmas), but found it was too noisy. Sigh. Better go do it later.

Oh yes! And for the netball trials, quite disappointing.. Most of them either didn't know how to play, or played the wrong position. As i was standing there, trying my very very best to stifle my laughter... Anyway, Francesca didn't get selected. Aww......

Anyway, life's getting more and more interesting now. Must go and practice my deep deep cheers. rAhahaha. *boing*boing*boing*

A((corn)) -boings- off..

prayer;praise;promises`_____ 8:27 pm

Saturday, January 03, 2004

Gushes. A day has swept by.

Caregroup came to the house yest. Had some kind of argument about the cup. I don't understand. What's the big deal about the cup? One cup, common cup.. Its all the same isn't is? The purpose of the drinking of the wine from the Cup was to remember Jesus, His death on the cross, and the blood he shed for our sins. Why do they have to go and make it so complicated? One cup, a lot of cups.. What IS the difference?

After they left, talked a little about Christian songs. Desmond explained that we shouldn't sing "I offer my life to you" etc. Because that will probably never happen. He says its better to not sing than to sing a song that you dont mean. Which i think is a fairly vaild argument.= )

YF today was greaaaaaaaat. *muack~. = ) Haha.. REALLY. Cca orientation was a thumbs up! I can't wait to be involved in it next yr!!! The Rgs team spirit blows me off my feet.. They are all so TOGETHER! = ) Except maybe for micromouse club, which a really quite a let down, so to speak. They were so united NOT. Haha. O well, i guess you must join it to experience the true pleasure. = ) Signed up for squash(man, i love the ppl!!), dance, drama(elds is amusing.. just laughed my head off.), netball(to accompany Francesca larh..) and ncc(for the fun of it. rAhahahahaha). Ncc spirit is making me envious. I won't mind going there, just that seems like the people there are like guys.. (sorry arh Min er..!!)

After Yf, went out with them for dinner. Shared plate of horfan with Germaine and still couldn't finish it. Haha.. While Corlissa and Shirely(is that how you spell it?) gobbled down their $3 mee and finished the sugarcane. I was like WOW.

Anyway, now i'm back home.. And i need to discuss this topic.
Its abt saying sorry.

Sorry shld be used sparingly. Which is smth i have to learn.. Sorry is supposed to be meaningful, but the way pple waste the word.. i dunnoe. It just tears me. Like how suddenly "sorry" becomes a word devoid of emotion.. How many times do we actually mean it? Just some food for thought. = )

prayer;praise;promises`_____ 10:04 pm

Friday, January 02, 2004

Yos. Was just reminded that it was a leap year. Weet. = ) Gouging myself on turkey now. Superbly delicious. So, t'was first day of school.. Learnt the school song(which rocks.), talks abt cca, house(i'm in hardley), had some home room time etc.. Guess what? We had the new blks.. It was absolutely the best. The room is like new new and more new. = ). Got to know a few of them, and got into an arguement with audrey. Haha. Hilarious i tellya. I was struggling to keep a straight face. I mean, being me..

I think practically my whole class found out what a lamer I am today. Even called me crazy. I was so hurt. HAr. Actually i wasn't. Just being me..= )

Mrs Tay. My form teacher. Seems like she's a experienced teacher. You geddit? HAr. But our dearest Francesca had the honour of getting Mr freemen. He's one of the funny ones..

Went back to school(olgc) today to go and be sentimental. Talked to Mrs Chia a lil bit, then got to see Miss Alb. Went to the tuckshoppe for a drink and caught up with each other.. Heard abt the different sch, compared uniforms.. Was my mean self again. Miss alb actually said :" I havent heard anything nice from you since the day i got to know you." Wow. It stung OKAY. So i gave her back what she deserved. Payback time..

But SIGHS. I know retribution's not supposed to melted out by yours truly, but by the Great One.. i dunnoe.. I can't help it. NoNO. I can.. Its only whether i want to.. Ah. Damnit.

Help you. Help me. Help myself. To the FOOD. Haha. Dinner. here i come..

prayer;praise;promises`_____ 7:07 pm

Thursday, January 01, 2004

Here we are. At the start of the new year, 364 days ahead of us. Just remembered a msn nickname that I made up sometime ago.. It was quite meaningful: You can chase the horizon but you'll never reach the sun. Although now i don't see what I just said is going to influence what i am going to say.

Just woke up. But its now 1.54pm. Still seems like morning to me. I need to switch my body clock back.

Watchnight activities were awesome. Not that I really understood what we did, but it was a time of fellowship with all the YFers. Student Peer Group was hilarious. Nobody shared, was contamplating whether to or not. Everyone was so not serious, i just decided to join in the fun. = ) Slacked during tent-making, even though I wanted to make myself useful.. So i just sat there and let them do all the work. Oops. Shouldn't be saying this, shld i? Haha..

I fogot that I was supposed to put my resolutions into action. But Adrian was there to remind me.= ) Don't be an idiot. Not impossible, not simple. Not somewhere in between.

Ate loads of crackers. Germaine was sick, pray for her= ). Sisters sharing was cool. Sat on the soggy newspapers and sang songs. I have a confession to make: I was taking a few winks while Florence was sharing. I was really really too tired!

Slept in car when brother was driving back. Quite an accomplishment since i'm a really picky sleeper(Yes. I REALLY am..). I guess i was too tired. And i want to do smth, although i think none of them will read it: Thank you camp com for the bookmark. So sweet! = )

Time is just a human thing. Wonder why people make such a fuss out of it. We could be celebrating a new year everyday, because man made time. So what if time doesn't wait for man, don't wait for time. Everytime is the right time. So don't hesitate to tell your friends that you love them, or not become a Christian because the time is not ripe etc.

What i really need to say now is,
Thank you,
.All my friends from 2003. We must stick together in the years to come too okay? = ) Cliche: I'll remember you always. Zeslene: You people made my life much more colourful.. = ) My memory isn't that good, so, relish the days. Haha. Good sec sch life. W/o me, sighs, probably not as colourful..(heez)
.Family is something Yh made me treasure. No matter how unresonable they maybe, family is what you can fall back on..
.You whom i dislike. You've taught me patience and tolerance even though i really cannot stand you and your irritating ways.
.Church. Something i didnt use to cherish, but now i know how much it actually means in my life.= )

4 years of Secondary school life to reveal. Let Him guide me..
'..Let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, looking to Jesus the founder and perfecter of our faith..'-Hebrews 12:1-2

Peace be with you. Peace i give you. = )

prayer;praise;promises`_____ 2:25 pm